Are you anxious about COVID-19? What parts of your eating disorder still affect you and prevent you from being fully recovered? Why did you stop seeing your dietitian? They were all questions which I answered in March’s monthly Q&A over on my Instagram stories.
You can listen to and watch my answers here, or read them below.
Q1. Are you anxious about COVID-19?
Yes. It’s definitely brought up some underlying health anxiety which I wasn’t aware that I still had.
Q2. I just wanted to tell you how much of an inspiration you are to me and my recovery. You are amazing!
Thank you so much, that really does mean a lot!
Q3. Just here to say Godspeed 🙂
Q4. Do you feel like your body has changed since you started working out? Ps. you are amazing!
I honestly don’t know! My exercise has been centred around improving my fitness and strength levels, (which I am achieving) so in all honesty I haven’t paid that much attention to the aesthetic aspect. I don’t obsessively body check or look at my body anymore, so I’m not sure. However, I do feel a lot better both physically and mentally.
Q5. Which school do you attend?
I’ve been attending college however due to the coronavirus outbreak, I will have to complete the remainder of my course from home.
Q6. Love your account.
Q7. What’s your current favourite form of movement?
I’ve also been enjoying yoga again and I love going on a long dog walk with my favourite playlist!
Q8. What areas of your eating disorder still affect you and prevent you from being fully recovered?
This question has actually made me think about things a lot. As for as Anorexia goes, I actually really don’t have that many eating disorder related thoughts anymore and when I do, I chose to ignore them or act against them. I do feel so close to being fully recovered, however if I was there already then I feel like I would know. The main thing that has an impact on my mental health now is loneliness, rather than food or body image.
Q9. How’s recovery going?
I’m in a really good place at the moment, thank you. I’ve been discharged from the eating disorder service, my extreme hunger has gone, my weight has finally plateaued and I’m actually living my best life (or at least when coronavirus isn’t ruining my plans!)
You can read my full update post here.
Q10. What happened with your dietitian? Why did you stop seeing her?
I stopped seeing my dietitian at the end of last year due to a number of triggering comments. She didn’t agree with my decision to listen to my hunger cues when it came to my extreme hunger and she refused to acknowledge that extreme hunger is even an aspect of recovery.
I saw her again for a follow-up appointment mid february which I actually ended up walking out off as she was encouraging me to cut out certain foods again and told me that my life needs an element of restriction, amongst a number of other triggering comments.
I recognised that as much as she may be a professional, no one knows what my body needs better than my body itself. I knew that part of this process was that I would overshoot my set point and I also knew that the only way to overcome my extreme hunger was to honour it. I didn’t follow her advice, but I listened to what my body needed and my weight has now plateaued.
In all honesty, I have never had the best experience with eating disorder professionals. I just knew what I needed to do in order to recover, regardless of what they said and I’m in a really good place because of that.
Q11. How to cope with your body changing?
Q12. I just wanted to say that I think that you’re incredibly brave for sharing your story and so resilient.
Q13. Did you experience night sweats in recovery? How long for?
I did experience night sweats however they occured when I was at my lowest weight, over a period of 2 years.
Q14. Whilst experiencing extreme hunger, were you ever scared that it was going to become bulimia or binge eating disorder?
No, I wasn’t. I was conscious of it early on however, I recognised that what I was doing was not binging – it was simply listening to my body’s hunger cues.
Q15. Do people’s actions or words on Instagram trigger you anymore?
For me personally, I was never triggered by the actions or words of people on Instagram. There have been times when I’ve been annoyed by comments or messages, however that happens less now.
Q16. Favourite Vegan comfort food? Sweet and savoury.
Q17. Would you consider doing a ‘What I Eat In A Day’ since you no longer have extreme hunger? I love seeing your recipes.
Yes, it’s already something which I have been thinking about doing so I definitely will.
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- Anorexia Recovery Q&A
- Q&A 1 – May
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- Q&A 3 – July or Read the blog post
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- Q & 10 – February